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Thanks for your support!
Thank you to all the caring people who have posted and emailed me since my blog about Jack's diagnosis. I really appreciate your kind thoughts and good wishes ... and the suggestions on how I could deal better with it.
A few points I'd like to clarify ...
I love my son with all my heart. To the few of you who may have thought otherwise, he is a wonderful, integral part of our family. Jack goes with us everywhere, my crew rolls as a team. He is treated 99% the same as our other four... the exception being we don't have to force our other children into special diets, supplements or therapies that are mandatory to ensure their development.
I am not embarrassed of Jack or his Autism. I am protective of him. I don't want anyone to think badly or him, look differently at him... just like with all my other children. I want the world to think he is the fabulous gift that I know he is. I worry that he will be treated differently by others who don't understand that while he is incredibly smart, he has a lot of difficultly interacting with others. Most people give up on communicating with him when he doesn't respond to their questions and greetings. I am here to help change that... to encourage him .. and them to push back the wall of Autism that divides us. Although I have stumbled on my journey .. I will not give up until that wall is down. Most of all I hate that Jack's life will be harder than my others will. I hate that is so hard for him to participate in family activities like his brothers and sister. I hurt for my child and I hurt for my family. While Jack is always with us, in many ways he is orbiting in his own world. We are working so hard to pull our universes together.
Finally, I am surprised at how I feel after my blog. I thought I was ready to share to help myself and others
feel less alone in their efforts to help their children and loved ones. I have cried rivers since my blog. I just can't stop the tears. I'm not sure if it is relief or opening my heart, soul and fears to the world. Whatever it is .. it surely is another step on our journey to recovery.
Melanie Shafer
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